Do I happen to be a heartbreaker, or a heartless guy? , Well I would say “No”. When it comes to relationship there are problems surrounding factors such as time, money, sacrifice or even self-gratification in terms of feeling good about the whole idea, and this is really something worth tackling before going ahead into the deep realms of the whole idea. I personally do not believe that because I happen to be in a relationship, and there is love, and I am not really comfortable with the sacrifies that I really have to push myself hard to accept it, because I don’t want to hurt the other party involved. This does apply to a current relationship I had to let go. The problem with this relationship was not love, money, or I have to lie a bit time. The main issue was that I was not really comfortable with the idea of that fixated point in my life.

Many would say I am not mature enough probably, or even go into the extent to say that I am a self-centred person. Well you can judge me but you cannot be right about your judgement. But then again we shouldn’t forget the fact that I am just 22–? I still do have a long way to go in my life. And really I am not ready to settle if that might be the case. Men are always afraid in general. But in my case that’s not the issue at all. I want a flexible relationship. A relationship I can say enough is enough, and that’s the end of it. Not a relationship that bonds me forever tills the altar calls.

Recently I was in a relationship, and really I think in fact it was a healthy one except for the fact that I did not really have time, and besides I was afraid of the fact that the relationship was going too deep. I couldn’t really be there for my lady. So I decided to call it quits. But really I would say this was one of the hardest decision I had take in years. But what a man got to do, he has to do. Now well I tried to explain the reason for my stance by my ex-lady would not see it. Well to make it easy on me I just did ask for forgiveness and had to bear the fact that she wont really see my angle, not now, maybe the future. That’s a lady for you.

Well indeed relationships are what they are, hard to let go, hard to forget and really had too reason rationally when they are not going well.

Well i have being lazy due to probably, because of the tormenting exam and maybe even life, my normal boring life that is.

Well i have been thinking of learning Java from scratch and becoming an expert like Dabar but then for a start I had to actually browse his blog, to get tips on things to download etc.

Besides that he has also personally really beign very helpful in terms of advising me on the approach such as my part of the dedication and also the recommendation of the best book to buy. He recommended Java� How to Program 6/E (latest edition),published by Deitel. When i checked both of my favourite local Bookstores via their websites MPH and KINOKUNIYA . They didntt have it. I even called theMPH and gave them the ISBN and they told me they dont have it when the lady checked the system. So I decided to search other bookstores like Times etc, still without any postitive result.

I then called Kinokuniya and the lady at the reception said they dont have it in stock, but they could order it for me . The funny thing is they actually have 2 editions . One the International edition costing arround RM79(approx 20.59USD) and the other what they call a normal edition costing also arround RM359(approx 92.52USD) or so. See the huge difference??. The international edition does not come with the Cds. So why not just download it from the site, and the rest from different respective sites. hehehe
Besides its a lot of money. So i called her back and told her i wanted the cheap one :p

So well my exams ends on the 16th of this month. So starting which Java ensures something for the holidays. No vacation for me, it would be just coding and coding and coding . And besides i downloaded w.blogger from the website, and its not working thats a desktop application software for blogging easily from your desktop environment. Anywayz i would try to re-download and reinstall later and see.Currently i just had my lunch and i am sleepy. :yawns:

Just like one of my fav sci-fic series star-trek, i discovered the word explorer, actually before that , but well i would say the usage of it began from then.My favourite series pack was the Next Generation captained by John Luc Picard. hum well i should let it flow that wayz, anywayz i am an explorer too when it comes to reading, researching and travelling arround the world wide web. i read like crazy. test like nuts. and travel like light. yeah i am great explorer.

well during my recent exploring i discoverd that when you write any URL on your browser, and add this name
.mirror.sytes.org after the url and press enter, you would see the site tottally in a mirror view. well you wanna try and see what happens. try for
Example: http://www.google.com.mirror.sytes.org

heheh cool isnt it? well this is provided my mirror.systes.org.
well i tried it with my site, i was impressed. the technique behind the scripting is incredible.well thats all for now. Blog Diactivate. hehehe

hum why did i use the word future? i dont know . perhaps i have finally settled. no more playing with my databases and other stuffs. hum . so what next. yeah still thinking about my guestbook. designing actually. i want something simple. by tonight i would upload it. the rest is quite simple. like the about me section. the links section have to do some modification . um watelse my pictures. still doubting whether i am really gonna put something in it. apart from that everything is just fine. anywayz thats all for now and stay tuned for more contents. thank you.